like.. even most irl leftists don't seem to support us, especially outside of america. my dad's a borderline fascist, my mom's an alcoholic, my friends will most likely stop talking to me out of shame, dating is fucking impossible when trans.
why live
I went on a date once with a woman who transitioned at 40 (wound up being too much distance between where we lived for it to work out). I also met another woman who came out and transitioned in her 60s last year, at a party where she was with her wife.
I know that might not be helpful right now, and I'm not telling you not to start your process now. But, if for your personal safety you choose to delay starting your transition, transition later in life is still possible.
But you know you, and there are trans comrades here who have probably been where you are now. Reach out and talk with them and/or us when you need to.
And remember, your friends might surprise you!