so today i found out that i'm related to a family that hid lenin when he escaped from petrograd in 1917. he was literally writing state and rev while he was staying there. this makes me probably more excited than it should. my dad told me how he introduced himself decades ago to someone and a guy was like "oh, you're one of those lenin-hiders." apparently this was semi-common knowledge in this region at the time.
rambly post but i regret nothing
that's amazing you better go see if he left any draft pages in your family's basement or something.
I'm glad you posted though <3
your brain might be mean to you but we won't be :)
The trick is to not post when sober. Anxiety can't get you when you're too fucked up to process it!
I am no longer convinced Biden will win the election. Every time he appears on camera it's a disaster
It's a disaster, but like trump, how much do those disasters really dissuade his supporters?
And frankly, his disasters come off a lot more likable than Trump's disasters. He's one of the worst dems, but he does exude a natural warmth.
It's dementia eyes, they didn't always used to look glassy and unfocused they do now and Trump's are the same these days.
I like flipping a coin every time he fucks up. The bourgeoisie keep us on our toes
Someone at the grocery store fucking coughed right at me as I was walking by. That was a week ago and it still really bothers me.
im fine, thanks for asking comrade. my friend is moving away so i took the risk to hang out. we were outside wearing masks the entire time, we went on a walk. when we were almost back we went to a corner store and like 5 people came in without masks after us and now im overthinking... this is in a super lib city in california too so i was shocked.
Dude they are out here in droves either tourists or just dumb motherfucking new age hipsters that are anti-mask. There's a frightening overlap with the crystal hippies and Q adjacent shit. (source my mom is an actual insane person).
lmao i live in a city with problably the highest concentration of those dumbass faux hippies in southern california. they are SO stupid, i hate them all. luckily my mom is a lib with trump derangement syndrome so she loves masks.
The new age hippie-spiritual type to Qanon to eco-fascism pipeline is real and fuckin scary.
thanks.
yeah i know i should be fine but i still get so freaked out sometimes.... i get a little claustrophobic now i guess, i already have bad anxiety lol but now this is making me go to extremes.
It's okay to be freaked out sometimes, I know there are times for me when I'm overwhelmed when sometimes the smallest things can set me off and I used to be really hard on myself for it, which only made it worse. If you're anything like me just remember that it's okay to not be okay <3
That shit sucks. But thanks it’s always glad to know most people feel the way I feel.
We're all in this together, especially here where we don't shy away from it and actively lean into solidarity <3
If you ever need anything feel free to reach out okay? It's never a bother :)
I had it really early on, like mid-March. It's scary af because of how it can hit you, but it was just like a flu for me.
Same here. Later I found this article about adjustment reactions in response to crisis and I feel like it perfectly characterizes what I went through.
some recent events. my friend's old house of 13 people were collectively served a 3-day eviction notice. 13 fuckin people that live there.
i've run into some serious arguments with a couple of my closest friends over Maoist thought. i've been trying to read more Mao and explore his works, and sometimes i pass those on to friends. but damn, the level of just totally written-off scorn with which the suggestion that Mao might be worth reading really blew my mind. one suggested i'm going too far and implied that i should get therapy or something. and it's making me have a couple thoughts:
one, why am i doing this? am i intentionally alienating my friends because i want to agree on what for most people are not central issues, like what for a more mainstream demsoc might be fringe and extremist thought? am i getting too focused on this and losing the bigger picture of overall solidarity with friends? on the other hand, that solidarity in understanding is what i'm seeking by talking with my left friends about theory. i want to be on the same level, and progress together toward a better world. but i also don't want to lose my friends over this. that would be so silly.
just finding that difficult. and honestly feeling my mental health kind of spiral out in a way, that part's true. i feel like i'm walking down a path from which i will never return; and much of me welcomes that, i feel certain in my heart that it is just.
these are tough times, comrades. sending you all love out there.
and there he is. i probably just have to give space for a while and maybe try from a different angle. the conversation was partly centered on them realizing that even scandanavian socialist countries do imperialism, and that therefore demsoc reform might not actually be the most effective counter to global capitalism.
so there's some distance to travel before we can really get there. bringing Mao into it at that point when i'm still trying to get him to acknowledge that armed revolutionary struggle has a place and that place may be here and now, is probably doing too much.
it's not quite so bad as all that, so don't stress yourself on my account. my friend is a demsoc, and is just scared of reading Lenin and Mao right now. that's understandable, my perception of the world got blown the fuck open by both of them. I'm a communist and I'm not going to stop being a communist.
the ultimate move is not to sacrifice the theory for the friendship, nor the friendship for the theory, but progress along it in the way that friendships do offering points that support what I see to be truth along the process. I'm not gonna change anyone's mind about this ; I'm just some guy. the events that are coming will be the ones to change their mind. all I can do is be there when it happens.
Don't push reading Mao on them. Mao is scary. I'm scared of reading Mao. Instead get them to talk and present Maoist viewpoints, maybe get them to agree. It doesn't matter if Mao (or whoever) came up with them for people to understand or adopt them
Honestly, just stop discussing radical stuff with them. Read it, look into it, understand it, hopefully find friends you can talk about it with. But keep it separate from the people who don't understand it at all.
that's a simple solution and probably the easiest. it's strange separating politically from a person you've otherwise shared everything with for years, more or less.
Mao's works are literally studied by the US military so they can try to understand (and combat) his god-tier theories on political and military organization. Your friends say you need therapy? That's insanely toxic on their part first of all. Secondly your friends knowledge of Mao sounds like it extends to "lol commie no food lol" and you shouldn't feel compelled to take them seriously on a topic they don't know anything about.
"No investigation, no right to speak" - Mao "Ze big dong" Zedong
I don't have anything helpful to add but you edited the comment while I was reading it and my brain broke trying to figure out where I was. I thought I was losing it lmao
haha, yeah the live element of this website is a new way of interacting with shit. i always look at my comment after and feel the need to rephrase things.
honestly the period between the reddit ban and the opening of this site felt like an eternity. now it feels like this place has been around for way longer than it has
It would be nice if there's a federated facebook alternative that isn't brutally awful. I know Friendica, diaspora, hubzilla, and GNUsocial exist but they are all bad.
I am drunk and still thinking about my ex. My only hope for this world is global socialism. May America die and may we see a new, better world be built, Chapos!:clinking glasses::clinking glasses::clinking glasses:
Since its sad bitch hours: im slowly coming to the terms with the fact that i will probably always feel like some sort of alien in mind and body. Which scares me to think about but also oddly comforting
lean into it tho
pretend you are an alien, decolonize your mind
the less you fit in, the better
asdfgjkl dont encourage me because im gonna become a starchild woo lady
Is there a name for it when you're cis but you still have some kind of dysphoria because your body just kind of sucks in general?
I live pretty close to the beach. When I walk my dogs around the neighborhood 95% of people are in masks walking around the last few weeks.
When I walk like a half mile to the beach path, it drops to like 30%. It's insane.
Thinking of the posts that remind us of the good times and the posts that remind us of the best times
i post the posts that remind me of the posts that remind me of the vodka drink
You underestimate the amount of care and love I give to my cacti AND free range Sonoran desert frogs
