Hi fellow chapocels. The world is hot garbage and we still don't have a menslib or mental health sub where we can vent about mental health shit specifically. I know mods are too busy bashing the fash in the streets so until we get appropriate subs, I was thinking that we can do sadposting on main. If there's enough interest, we can post it weekly. I can post it on Mondays around 23h Moscow time so we can all vent after a long day at the posting factory. Mods please pin the thread.
So anyway, let's try it out. How is everyone? How are you doing lately? How do you cope with the fact that the world is hot garbagetrash?
On leave till I get a psych evaluation because I had two panic attacks in two days and my bosses would rather think it's a me problem and not the fact they have left us critically understaffed for years because line is okay.
If you do decide to start making videos I'd love to watch some content from comrades. Glad you're doing better.
Lately I'm so damn angry. It really gets to me. I fucking hate this country and the people so fucking much. I can't watch news or read the comments because I will ruin my own day.
I feel the only people I can level with are other leftists. It feels really isolating and frustrating. I won't compromise on my believes. Our society is simply lunatic in so many ways I can't pretend it's okay. It's like I took a giant blackpill.
Miserable and don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about my feelings. Sucks. Rest of my life doesn't have anything real to complain about (stable, healthy, employed, etc) so the guilt tells me to shut up and take it.
You always have us, I know it's not the same as face to face conversation but hit me up if you want to talk. I was in exactly the same position and it led me to having panic attacks at work.
Same. Flipping back and forth between feeling guilty for having it okay, and feeling grateful that I do. Also trying to enjoy the good ol days.
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Been wanting to bring up my Gender Stuff with my mom for a while but every time I feel like maybe mentioning it she's drunk off her ass (which is almost every evening) and it's impossible to talk to her when she's in such a state so IDK why I even bother
Also my cat's losing weight again so I'm gonna have to take him back to the vet to see what's up :(
She knows I have Something on my mind I wanna talk to her about, but there are times where she isn't drunk but I just don't feel like talking to her for other reasons. Everything kinda has to line up just right
I'm tired all the time, I've got a million things I need to do but zero motivation to do them, none of my hobbies bring the happiness they used to, I live in an extremely rural area where I know barely anyone, two of my only online friends just outed themselves as blue lives matter trump voters, and my dog that I've had since he was a puppy is 13 years old and his health is failing. the psychiatrist prescribed me some anti-depressants but I don't think I can medicate away my pure existential despair.
I gotta say it, quarantining has me thirsty af. Like normally I'm happily single and I'm lazy and shy and I don't really care enough to put myself out there. (I should note that I don't "have" to be quarantining since I haven't been exposed and aren't particularly vulnerable to it - but it seems like the responsible thing to do since things keep getting worse and I'm uninsured.) But whether it's not getting as much contact with my friends, or having way too much free time, or feeling like I don't have the option, or the fact that some of my friends are moving and I might be too, or general anxiety about the world, idk now that I list everything it's kinda a perfect storm. Just craving that contact and closeness, and I don't think there's much I can do about it.
Bleh ok enough about that just needed it off my chest.
Having a bad time with relationship issues, which sends me spinning back into fantasies of self-harm and eating disorder behaviors. Haven’t seen a therapist in years, which is obviously not for the best. I’m not even sure how to make an appointment with covid going on. It kind of feels like I’ve been putting on a brave/normal face for the last few years and now that there’s conflict, I can’t quite sustain it anymore.
Look it up at the most basic for your state and see how sign-ups work. Telehealth has made this shit more accessible. Wishing you the best. :sankara-salute:
Thanks. I checked and happily it looks like the lady I used to see years ago is still practicing, so now I need to figure out if I can make an appointment.
I haven't been doing well lately. August has been a shit month in a shit year. I've been doing everything I can for the last three years to avoid falling back into a depressive episode. Summer is always tough for me, hopefully I'll feel better in autumn.
Summer is always the worst for me mental health wise too. I always look forward to fall so much. Hopefully the colder weather brings us both some peace of mind.
Hey, we survived another summer! May autumn give us the well-being we deserve.
Funny enough, just like clockwork, things are cooling down as fall is coming around and I swear I'm feeling a lot better! I don't understand why but I'll take what I can get that's for sure.
I'm trying to quit AM drinking. I gave myself Labor Day before I hop on the wagon and try to do better to my body. I barely drink for anything but homeostasis at this point, and need to reset my BAC so it isn't... Wrong. I believe I'm not a full blown alchy, but I need to fucking prove it. And every time I do prove it for however long, I slingshot back so hard into a binge-streak again.
i need to put myself out there more. how do you meet new people without banging them? outside of like fucking work
I was going to write a big venty thing but I suppose keeping it short: not well over the span of this pandemic though I'm doing alright this week.
Dysphoria + stuck in quarantine with immunocompromised/old parents + furloughed from job/no schooling + no in-person appointments for therapy kind of blows. I don't mind the free time to do other things I want while still at home (like learning guitar or doing some gaming) but I just wish we could hit a fucking post-pandemic point already.
