Feels bad, man.

Hey everyone, just did what it says in the title. Posting into the void that is chapo bc internet validation points would do a little to help fill the void left in my heart.

Was really happy with them and had plans. Wanted to spend the rest of my life with them tbh. Really kinda hurts now that I think about it.

Ultimately, what we wanted out of the relationship couldn't be reconciled. Glad that we were able to end things amicably. I really respect that we were always able to talk about things that bothered us in a rational manner. Real diamond in the rough maturity that's gonna be really hard to find in another person.

Anyway, I'm up in the wee hours of the morning and I wanna talk to everyone else. Get my mind off things, y'know. So, how y'all doing? Also, could use a lil suck pwease? Post hog if y'all wanna link up ;)

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      If not, I can always try autofellatio. Gives me a goal to strive toward

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      Yeah, when it reaches the point where plans are made, it really hurts extra hard when it doesn't work out. I'm kinda glad it did end well, we're working on being friends like we were before and that gives me the opportunity to not hurt as much as I learn to move on. At least I know I can't fall back into the relationship so that's not a worry lol.

      Right now I have school to take up my time, but the semester is going to end soon. Would be awesome, but right now I do kinda need something to take up my time lol. Guess I'll keep working on exercising. Will finally have the time to play video games again so that's kinda neat! And I'll work on cooking and maybe actually getting around to reading the theory I told myself I was going to get to. Perhaps that's part of the process. Just trying to find enjoyment in the little things. We certainly could use some joy during coronamania right now...

      Get some rest Aleph, you're one of the posters I consistently recognize on this site. We need your posting in tip top shape to bring about the revolution! :revolving hearts:

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      :smiling face with hearts: Receiving vibes! Reciprocating to you, comrade!

  • Amorphous [any]
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    4 years ago

    That sucks dude. But I'm sure you'll be glad it happened now rather than later, especially once you get into a better relationship with someone whose goals better align with your own. <3

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      Certainly feels bad. Bittersweet I suppose. There is the future to look forward to, and it will happen eventually I hope. Until then, the struggle carries on, right?

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      Who needs romantic love when you have the comradely love that the Revolution will bring. The day will come once again to release my bodily fluids, but in service of my cumrades upholding the Revolution! May it cum soon!

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      Thanks, comrade.

      Wish I wasn't up early a lot either lol. School does that to you though.

      I don't know anything about snow but on the bright side climate change is sure to bring some more warm days to your region. Hopefully only Phoenix, Arizona crispy and not the pits of hell hot but what can ya do? :man shrugging:

      I'm glad to hear you working on yourself! Will certainly try to do that now that I have...a lot more time to do so. It was actually my ex's idea to use dating apps to find friends so perhaps we'll meet again there.

      On the money with the self care thing. Really needed to hear that today

  • Slaanesh [he/him, comrade/them]
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    That sucks bud. I've been seeing a comrade for a bit but it's just not working out. Shit sucks but if you grow from the experience it's good.

    Also I came in looking for hog, where it be?

  • kaka [he/him,they/them]
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    4 years ago

    Sorry to hear that comrade. Life truly is suffering, if you think about it

  • ItsPequod [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    Fuck I relate to this. Guess I didn't communicate early or well enough, though, so now I think I ruined our friendship too. Feels bad man, as much as I want to still be friends I respect her wish to move on and deserve that chance myself, so part of me hopes she sticks to her guns and never speaks to me again. Knowledge of our own personal history tells me to expect otherwise.

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      I'm sure whatever happens that you will be able to work things out! :sparkling heart: I think that it's possible to have a working friendship with an ex-lover, that's kinda where we're at right now. I suppose it's a process of setting the appropriate boundaries. Although the time will come where we can move on. I'm sure it hurts like hell. It sure does for me. But time heals all wounds, or so I've heard. Hopefully that time can also bring about global communism so we can love free from wage-slavery

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      High school band. They were my absolute best friend for years. Told each other everything, things that not even our closest other friends or family know. I'd say that they know me better than anyone, perhaps even myself. So when we started dating after high school, things just felt...right. Like this was meant to happen. So it really sucks when things didn't work out.

      Glad to still be friends with them though. I still care about them and appreciate them being in my life. It will take a while to find someone else to connect with on that level though.

  • PonsonBaz [they/them,he/him]
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    4 years ago

    Had a very similar experience recently, it's tough moving through it. I think I was on the opposite side of the coin though, where my partner had longer term plans for us and I didn't. I still feel bad because idk if I gave them the love that they deserved and needed. Just know that it was better to go through it now rather than later, things are harder to reconcile down the line. And don't worry, you'll find someone just as great or better in the future. It's easy to see things as "diamond in the ruff" so close to the incident, but there are many great people out there to love <3

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      Hmm. Thanks for the perspective. Perhaps you're right. It hurts to lose something great but all I can do is hope for something even better. And I think that you did fine. All anyone can ask of you is to give the love you can

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      It's cool, I don't expect servants of Soros to know much about love. Too busy bringing about cultural communism or whatever thing the chuds are raving on about,

      In all seriousness, I do appreciate your presence :beating heart:

  • Koa_lala [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    Look at it this way, now you're single, like me. :)