dysphoria, worries about transitioning, hopelessness
I can't believe how long it would take me to look good. And that's if I start now, which I probably won't. It just kinda hurts that I'll never be a young woman, you know?
And that's if I try really hard on my voice and makeup. I don't try hard on anything :cri: maybe it's not worth it. Maybe nothing is worth it.
i can relate a lot to this feeling as a late-ish transitioner, but i do want to point something out that helps me sometimes - i hope you realise most cis women feel this way too! in our society the only good woman, is one who's young, white, fertile, skinny & able bodied. fat cis women are constantly told they're not good enough, not woman enough & same goes for racialised cis women & disabled cis women. if the idea of youth and womanhood is largely being used to reinforce white supremacist capitalist hegemony, then maybe not being a "normal" woman is totally fine? in fact the more different women there are out there the more amazing and beautiful women become as a whole imo
dysphoria, worries about transitioning, hopelessness
I can't believe how long it would take me to look good. And that's if I start now, which I probably won't. It just kinda hurts that I'll never be a young woman, you know?
And that's if I try really hard on my voice and makeup. I don't try hard on anything :cri: maybe it's not worth it. Maybe nothing is worth it.
time passes regardless
I know
I wish I didn't
i can relate a lot to this feeling as a late-ish transitioner, but i do want to point something out that helps me sometimes - i hope you realise most cis women feel this way too! in our society the only good woman, is one who's young, white, fertile, skinny & able bodied. fat cis women are constantly told they're not good enough, not woman enough & same goes for racialised cis women & disabled cis women. if the idea of youth and womanhood is largely being used to reinforce white supremacist capitalist hegemony, then maybe not being a "normal" woman is totally fine? in fact the more different women there are out there the more amazing and beautiful women become as a whole imo
lots of love
Thank you, I had never thought of it that way. That's really helpful.
:meow-hug: thanks I need it.