MORE PRIDE THAN EVER BEFOOOOOOORE
Just celebrated 1 year on E last week by getting myself some beautiful boots and getting a bunch of (mostly) trans friends together for dinner. First time I have ever felt like I was part of a community. It made me so happy, ya’ll.
I really love this. I never did any sort of celebration but it seems like such a good reason to get all the trans friends together.
When I hit this scene in Paper Mario, it made me tear up a little.
down with cis
I couldn't get a trans flag in my name, so I got
fiveseven pronouns instead.Pronoun maxxing.
I couldn't get a trans flag in my name
biggest betrayel of making a hexbear account is realizing you can't do cool stuff with the name
I already had an idea (that it wasn't possible), though I had seen Tabitha with a ☢️ so I was hoping it might possible, just a bit of technical grease needed. But nope, it must have been changed.
I just realised I might be able to fit "any" in there too
Yes. I can.
Took my first e shot saturday and I'm feeling great so far, though I do get that it will take awhile before I really start to notice anything. Next step is getting my body hair under control.
It's very unlikely you'll feel anything for about 2 weeks, and even then it will be subtle. Emotional changes weren't really noticeable for me until about week 3
congrats on the e shots though :)
For me I had a giant mood swing for the better by the end of the first week. I seemed to be very receptive to antiandrogens though.
Then I hibernated for like a month
Even before the hormonal effects set in it feels so good just to do it ✨
I’m loving that people are able to start hrt with shots now.
pride
I'm happy for everyone, they have all what I want, I struggle.
I know it's a dead end but some days more than others I really resent that I wasnt just born a cis girl. Like I know I've felt this way for so long. Like since I was a kid. But it really does just kinda suck. I like being trans for sure though it's just.. it's so much work and I feel like I missed so much
I jump between wishing I was born girl, and wishing I was born with money
sad
I like being trans for sure though it's just.. it's so much work and I feel like I missed so much
I feel this so hard, I find myself constantly needing to stop myself from wallowing in my own sadness about missing out on any sort of 'girlhood'.
And also like why does everything need to be so hard? Voice training is so garbage I just want to sound good
Voice training is killing me because I simultaneously know that it's like, the big thing that stops people from seeing me and also it feels so Impossible that I will never get there. Like, yes, my face is quite masculine, it's very angular and I have really strong features, but like I think my voice is really the thing that kills me. Ugh. But I feel like such a joke when I try girl voice
I should post more often. I still have unbearable posting anxiety so maybe if I challenge myself to make one post a day here, I'll actually follow through. My therapist wants me to journal more and this counts, right?
In other news, I go to the HRT Dr in 48 hours. It's a bit of a drive from my house, but it's a trans/NB owned clinic that employs nothing but trans/NB people. It's taken 4 months to get an appointment, but the day is nearly here.
I'm pretty lucky to have it. It's not exactly close, but it's better than any of the alternatives. It just takes a loooooong time to get an appointment since they are a pretty small clinic, and they vet their calls heavily. It took 3 months to get a response, and then another 6 weeks for the soonest appointment. But the wait is nearly over.
Excited for you finally getting an appointment, it sounds super worth the wait
I'm still around. I read everything, I'm just usually pretty anxious about posting. But I'm working through it.
talking about my tits again for the 215,752nd time:
oh my fucking god i have very small tits now. it's been like 6 weeks on E I genuinely didn't think it would happen this fast but they are sore and kind of itchy and visibly growing holy fuck
unrelated to my tits but my roommate said she even noticed my facial fat start to redistribute as well and while i don't think i look any more feminine just yet I swear I do look a little different now